Alone in the crowd

I find myself for a while,
Being jostled and swayed by many,
In a crowd I chose to be.
To hide a lonely reality,
That without them, those strangers,
My day would be oh so quiet.

I dream of sunsets, of hills to climb,
And in those adventures I am free.
Because I am with you forever,
And not still here, waiting patiently,
Smiling dumbly and choking in silence,
In a room full of people laughing.

Loving without conditions I crave,
To behold and desperately share.
It fills my tiny soul with joy,
That with you I could be abundant,
Overflowing even, with kindness replete,
For the adventure of our lives.

And here I sit, still pensive.
Hoping to overcome this real fear,
That my life will have been for nought,
Alone in desperation of the wanting.
Yet not for the having tried at all,
I've busied myself in earnest.

Others I observe, my lively friends,
Seem occupied with busy lives.
As if they had never known,
How alone One could really be.
Even in a thronging happy crowd,
As another day draws to a close.

And here you come, a hearty smile,
Opening my eyes wide in surprise.
Gracing my hopes within your way,
Of tenderness and honest love.
I feel now, a rescue welcomed,
And then the lights suddenly flicker.

Awakened by this sudden change,
I notice once more I'm alone.
The friends I had welcomed,
All gone now upon their way,
As Nero's closes up it's doors,
And I move homewards solemnly.

Oh well, maybe tomorrow, eh ?
Yes, that will be the turning point,
And I will feel lonely no more.
Becoming all I desire to really be.
And there you skip and dance along,
With me to share that endless fun !




x L.S.S x

I have been waiting, come home Shirley Valentine.